屋顶间的哲学家_梭维斯特-第13章
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thinkofreturningtoparis。myfatherrepliedintheaffirmative；andopenedhistinboxtoputhisbookbackinit。
thestrangeraskedhimwithasmileifhemightwithoutimpertinenceaskthenameofit。myfatheransweredthatitwasrousseausemile。
thestrangerimmediatelybecamegrave。
theywalkedforsometimesidebyside；myfatherexpressing；withthewarmthofaheartstillthrobbingwithemotion；allthatthisworkhadmadehimfeel；hispanionremainingcoldandsilent。theformerextolledthegloryofthegreatgenevesewriter；whosegeniushadmadehimacitizenoftheworld；heexpatiatedonthisprivilegeofgreatthinkers；whoreigninspiteoftimeandspace；andgathertogetherapeopleofwillingsubjectsoutofallnations；butthestrangersuddenlyinterruptedhim：
〃andhowdoyouknow；〃saidhe；mildly；〃whetherjeanjacqueswouldnotexchangethereputationwhichyouseemtoenvyforthelifeofoneofthewood…cutterswhosechimneyssmokewesee？whathasfamebroughthimexceptpersecution？theunknownfriendswhomhisbooksmayhavemadeforhimcontentthemselveswithblessinghimintheirhearts；whilethedeclaredenemiesthattheyhavedrawnuponhimpursuehimwithviolenceandcalumny！hispridehasbeenflatteredbysuccess：howmanytimeshasitbeenwoundedbysatire？andbeassuredthathumanprideislikethesybaritewhowaspreventedfromsleepingbyacreaseinaroseleaf。theactivityofavigorousmind；bywhichtheworldprofits；almostalwaysturnsagainsthimwhopossessesit。heexpectsmorefromitashegrowsolder；theidealhepursuescontinuallydisgustshimwiththeactual；heislikeamanwho；withatoo…refinedsight；discernsspotsandblemishesinthemostbeautifulface。iwillnotspeakofstrongertemptationsandofdeeperdownfalls。genius；youhavesaid；isakingdom；butwhatvirtuousmanisnotafraidofbeingaking？hewhofeelsonlyhisgreatpowers；is鈥斺�攚iththeweaknessesandpassionsofournature鈥斺�攑reparingforgreatfailures。believeme；sir；theunhappymanwhowrotethisbookisnoobjectofadmirationorofenvy；but；ifyouhaveafeelingheart；pityhim！〃
myfather；astonishedattheexcitementwithwhichhispanionpronouncedtheselastwords；didnotknowwhattoanswer。
justthentheyreachedthepavedroadwhichledfrommeudoncastletothatofversailles；acarriagewaspassing。
theladieswhowereinitperceivedtheoldman；utteredanexclamationofsurprise；andleaningoutofthewindowrepeated：
〃thereisjeanjacques鈥斺�攖hereisrousseau！〃
thenthecarriagedisappearedinthedistance。
myfatherremainedmotionless；confounded；andamazed；hiseyeswideopen；andhishandsclasped。
rousseau；whohadshudderedonhearinghisnamespoken；turnedtowardhim：
〃yousee；〃saidhe；withthebittermisanthropywhichhislatermisfortuneshadproducedinhim；〃jeanjacquescannotevenhidehimself：
heisanobjectofcuriositytosome；ofmalignitytoothers；andtoallheisapublicthing；atwhichtheypointthefinger。itwouldsignifylessifhehadonlytosubmittotheimpertinenceoftheidle；but；assoonasamanhashadthemisfortunetomakehimselfaname；hebeespublicproperty。everyonerakesintohislife；relateshismosttrivialactions；andinsultshisfeelings；hebeeslikethosewalls；whicheverypasser…bymaydefacewithsomeabusivewriting。perhapsyouwillsaythatihavemyselfencouragedthiscuriositybypublishingmyconfessions。buttheworldforcedmetoit。theylookedintomyhousethroughtheblinds；andtheyslanderedme；ihaveopenedthedoorsandwindows；sothattheyshouldatleastknowmesuchasiam。adieu；sir。
wheneveryouwishtoknowtheworthoffame；rememberthatyouhaveseenrousseau。〃
nineoclock鈥斺�攁h！nowiunderstandmyfathersstory！itcontainstheanswertooneofthequestionsiaskedmyselfaweekago。yes；inowfeelthatfameandpoweraregiftsthataredearlybought；andthat；whentheydazzlethesoul；bothareoftenest；asmadamedestaelsays；butundeuileclatantdebonheur！
tisbettertobelowlyborn；andrangewithhumbleliversincontent；thantobeperkdupinaglisteringgrief；andwearagoldensorrow。
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CHAPTER VIII
misanthropyandrepentance
august3d；nineoclockp。m。
therearedayswheneverythingappearsgloomytous；theworld；likethesky；iscoveredbyadarkfog。nothingseemsinitsplace；weseeonlymisery；improvidence；andcruelty；theworldseemswithoutgod；andgivenuptoalltheevilsofchance。
yesterdayiwasinthisunhappyhumor。afteralongwalkinthefaubourgs；ireturnedhome；sadanddispirited。
everythingihadseenseemedtoaccusethecivilizationofwhichwearesoproud！ihadwanderedintoalittleby…street；withwhichiwasnotacquainted；andifoundmyselfsuddenlyinthemiddleofthosedreadfulabodeswherethepoorareborn；tolanguishanddie。ilookedatthosedecayingwalls；whichtimehascoveredwithafoulleprosy；thosewindows；fromwhichdirtyragshangouttodry；thosefetidgutters；whichcoilalongthefrontsofthehouseslikevenomousreptiles！
ifeltoppressedwithgrief；andhastenedon。
alittlefartheroniwasstoppedbythehearseofahospital；adeadman；naileddowninhisdealcoffin；wasgoingtohislastabode；withoutfuneralpomporceremony；andwithoutfollowers。therewasnothereeventhatlastfriendoftheoutcast鈥斺�攖hedog；whichapainterhasintroducedasthesoleattendantatthepaupersburial！hewhomtheywerepreparingtomittotheearthwasgoingtothetomb；ashehadlived；alone；doubtlessnoonewouldbeawareofhisend。inthisbattleofsociety；whatsignifiesasoldiertheless？
butwhat；then；isthishumansociety；ifoneofitsmemberscanthusdisappearlikealeafcarriedawaybythewind？
thehospitalwasnearabarrack；attheentranceofwhicholdmen；women；andchildrenwerequarrellingfortheremainsofthecoarsebreadwhichthesoldiershadgiventhemincharity！thus；beingslikeourselvesdailywaitindestitutiononourpassiontillwegivethemleavetolive！wholetroopsofoutcasts；inadditiontothetrialsimposedonallgodschildren；havetoendurethepangsofcold；hunger；andhumiliation。unhappyhumanmonwealth！wheremanisinaworseconditionthanthebeeinitshive；ortheantinitssubterraneancity！
ah！whatthenavailsourreason？whatistheuseofsomanyhighfaculties；ifweareneitherthewisernorthehappierforthem？whichofuswouldnotexchangehislifeoflaborandtroublewiththatofthebirdsoftheair；towhomthewholeworldisalifeofjoy？
howwelliunderstandtheplaintofmao；inthepopulartalesofthefoyerbretonwho；whendyingofhungerandthirst；says；ashelooksatthebullfinchesriflingthefruit…trees：
〃alas！thosebirdsarehappierthanchristians；theyhavenoneedofinns；orbutchers；orbakers；orgardeners。godsheavenbelongstothem；andearthspreadsacontinualfeastbeforethem！thetinyfliesaretheirgame；ripegrasstheircornfields；andhipsandhawstheirstoreoffruit。theyhavetherightoftakingeverywhere；withoutpayingoraskingleave：thusesitthatthelittlebirdsarehappy；andsingallthelivelongday！〃
butthelifeofmaninanaturalstateislikethatofthebirds；heequallyenjoysnature。〃theearthspreadsacontinualfeastbeforehim。〃
what；then；hashegainedbythatselfishandimperfectassociationwhichformsanation？woulditnotbebetterforeveryonetoturnagaintothefertilebosomofnature；andlivethereuponherbountyinpeaceandliberty？
august20th；fouroclocka。m鈥斺�攖hedawncastsaredglowonmybed…curtains；thebreezebringsinthefragranceofthegardensbelow。hereiamagainleaningonmyelbowsbythewindows；inhalingthefreshnessandgladnessofthisfirstwakeningoftheday。
myeyealwayspassesovertheroofsfilledwithflowers；warbling；andsunlight；withthesamepleasure；butto…dayitstopsattheendofabuttresswhichseparatesourhousefromthenext。
thestormshavestrippedthetopofitsplastercovering；anddustcarriedbythewindhascollectedinthecrevices；and；beingfixedtherebytherain；hasformedasortofaerialterrace；wheresomegreengrasshassprungup。amongitrisesastalkofwheat；whichto…dayissurmountedbyasicklyearthatdroopsitsyellowhead。
thispoorstraycropontheroofs；theharvestofwhichwillfalltotheneighboringsparrows；hascarriedmythoughtstotherichcropswhicharenowfallingbeneaththesickle；ithasrecalledtomethebeautifulwalksitookasachildthroughmynativeprovince；whenthethreshing…floorsatthefarmhousesresoundedfromeverypartwiththesoundofaflail；andwhenthecarts；loadedwithgoldensheaves；cameinbyalltheroads。
istillrememberthesongsofthemaidens；thecheerfulnessoftheoldmen；theopen…heartedmerrimentofthelaborers。therewas；atthattime；somethingintheirlooksbothofprideandfeeling。thelattercamefromthankfulnesstogod；theformerfromthesightoftheharvest；therewardoftheirlabor。theyfeltindistinctlythegrandeurandtheholinessoftheirpartinthegeneralworkoftheworld；theylookedwithprideupontheirmountainsofcorn…sheaves；andtheyseemedtosay；nexttogod；itiswewhofeedtheworld！
whatawonderfulorderthereisinallhumanlabor！
whilethehusbandmanfurrowshisland；andpreparesforeveryonehisdailybread；thetownartizan；faraway；weavesthestuffinwhichheistobeclothed；theminerseeksundergroundtheironforhisplow；thesoldierdefendshimagainsttheinvader；thejudgetakescarethatthelawprotectshisfields；thetax…ptrolleradjustshisprivateinterestswiththoseofthepublic；themerchantoccupieshimselfinexchanginghisproductswiththoseofdistantcountries；themenofscienceandofartaddeverydayafewhorsestothisidealteam；whichdrawsalongthematerialworld；assteamimpelsthegigantictrainsofourironroads！thusallunitetogether；allhelponeanother；thetoilofeachonebenefitshimselfandalltheworld；theworkhasbeenapportionedamongthedifferentmembersofthewholeofsocietybyatacitagreement。if；inthisapportionment；errorsaremitted；ifcertainindividualshavenotbeenemployedaccordingtotheircapacities；thosedefectsofdetaildiminishinthesublimeconceptionofthewhole。
thepoorestmanincludedinthisassociationhashisplace；hiswork；hisreasonforbeingthere；eachissomethinginthewhole。
thereisnothinglikethisformaninthestateofnature。ashedependsonlyuponhimself；itisnecessarythathebesufficientforeverything。
allcreationishisproperty；buthefindsinitasmanyhindrancesashelps。hemusts
